Interlude

This post is not going to have any updates about the delivery and beginning of Lily's life. I just felt like writing about how I'm feeling in the aftermath of it all for a bit.
As I look back now I struggle to remember the order of everything that happened. I know the notes I took are incomplete and that I probably will write somethings out of order. I do remember how relieved I was when I heard that Jamie was going to be okay. I was so afraid and nervous when they released her so early from the hospital. I just didn't know if she was well enough after all she had been through. I know they wanted her to be able to go to Royal Oak to see Lily but I feared that she would have some kind of set back or still have trouble with her lungs or high blood pressure. But I also felt her pain and need to see Lily. I can't imagine having to let my small fragile daughter be somewhere that I wasn't even if she was in good hands. I am so proud of the way Jamie has handled these trying times. She has put Lily first in every decision. She has maintained a calm about her that I'm sure has helped keep Lily calm and peaceful as she grows stronger everyday.
Life has certainly thrown me some curve balls and I know I don't always manage to handle them very well. But I guess I'll get through this too.
I miss Jamie and Josh and Lily very much. And I miss Dan so much too. It is so hard to be away from all of them. It makes the time with them even more precious. I love them all so very much.
Well I guess that's it for my blathering for now. I have to get to work and help families have a magical day! My great escape from real world stuggles!!! Hoping to hear good news tonight about little Lily.